Changes?
Now Playing: Kiroro - Nagai Aida

I think I've changed a little since...well since I remembered who I was? Heheh I dunno.

Hmm, I dont remember what date it was, but we had a futsal match against one of the pro teams around here. I was the goalkeeper. So yeah, I sucked. So bad. I agreed to be goalie because no one wanned to be.. Sian jua tu the coaches mikirkan, so I volunteered. Mana lah tau I would enjoy it.. Then, after a few trainings, one of the coaches' dad helped them to train us. He was okay.. Then on the training after that, the coach asked his dad to train me goalie trainings.. So neways, back to the match. I was goalie for the first round.. I was so nervous that I really sucked. They changed me with this gurl from Dragonfly who was really good. They asked me to watch carefully, so I did lah kan.. Then they asked me to back in on the 4th round I think... I let in like....20 goals? Yea. N we scored 2. The coach's dad arrived by the 4th round n started yelling at me for not catching the ball right, not throwing it right, not kicking the ball far.... And some of the players kept yelling at me to throw it to someone who was free (no one ever was).. N when i failed to do that, well i had nothing else to do but accept the death-stares right.. So yea, they replaced me by the last round with this gurl who never had goalie training before.. N she actually got the coach's dad laughing n smiling... He looked at me n pointed at the gurl n sed "thats how u do it!" n I know I should have been greatful that our team was doing okay, but I was so saddd... Then, at the end (24-2), all the gurls were hugging the new goalie n calling her their hero... I shudve been hugging her too if I wasnt much too occupied with my own feelings and thoughts.. I'm a bad person rnt I? I was talking to this one gurl who I think was a magnificent player, but she sed she only got released into the game for about 5 minutes n then got replaced by another player... Macam "Whaaaaat~?" So yea, that gurl n I were talking about the match la.. heheh. Bitchin about I guess. Then after the game we went to the toilet coz that gurl wanned to change (I ended up hangin with her since she was kinda in the same position as I was ==> Uuflattered), but ummm there was a lizard in the toilet n she was scared of em as I am lol (I wud actually cry if I encounter one that I cant escape..*shudders*). So outta the toilet, we sat down with some of the other players. One of these players was one of the players that yelled at me. She sed sorry for yelling at me n that I shud feel good coz I did block alot of scores.. She kept patting my back and telling me that the main point was that we had fun.. I didnt pulang but I'd hand it to her lah coz she was actually playing lol. But yea, fortunately my driver came just when my tears were spilling off my eyelids. Some of the other players n one of the coaches who was sitting with us apologised to me which I am still wondering why.. Heheh. But yea, all that yelling was too much for me (esp from the coach's daddy), so I quit footie. N bsyds, rupanya my mom didnt approve of me playing footie coz its a boys' sport (how traditional is my mother?) lol. But she did say this (in malay plang) "Just go to school and ask for money" Hahahaha. N my rents bought me the W550i Walkman Sony Ericsson Phone <333333333

I quit choir since I promised my teachers. They seem to be doing alright without me, so yeah. I do want to join the competition.....but I cant. Sigh.. But my friends r supporting me for A Levels :) But I still joined 2 assembly choirs lol. I dont think I will be nemore though since the choir ppl dont seem to have time to talk to me nemore. They have only been asking me if I know Ak.Amilin's number. As if.. On the bright side, I got 19 over 30 (63%) for my Accounting test which I was second highest in my class in.. Adn 27 over 28 (96%) for the Business classwork (which was soooo like a test -- the teacher is a little dramatic I guess :P) n I was tied in first place for that :) so its good to know that I can be back soon xP

So maybe I havnt changed alot eh? Maybe I'm just manja. Maybe too manja for my own good.
Can't even take yelling... Seriously, I think my little sister had been yelled more than I have my entire life by my dad.. I avoid my dad when he's mad, it makes me cry. I guess it's because I have this thing about wanting to be liked.. When someone doesnt like me, or looks like they dont like me for some reason, I just feel....well, other than good really.. Heheh. Sigh, I dont know, it may become some kinda unhealthy obsession.. But I do know that some people dont like me, and I accept that. Wow, look at me...growin up. Lol. So neways, keep it high people =)

peasheness :*

I am sick!!
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: That's What Little Girls Are Made Of - Raven Symone
This is such a cute song.. hehe. I'm sick. lol. Ntaha.. It's not sucha big deal plang.. I just have a cold. It shucks ayss~ lol.

Hmm, so tomorrow I have a date wif the gurls d Mall.. Meeting at WS at 2 I think. Hopefully it'll be nice hehe. I always feel awkward coz I'm the only tall n chubby one of the pack... hahaha. But yeah, then again I dont care :D They're mah gurls!~~ lol. Who I think will be there are Saedah, Yuma, Hazwani, Amal L and maybe Eva.. Dunno. Hmm, I wanned to drag along Bed n AzNuur.....but then mcm, sian jua durang. hehe not the same crowd u see.

So neways, my brother says that there's gonna be a party at the Empire tomoro night...Durang buat2 sendiri hahaha suspendet.. Then I figured that my mom lets me to parties since she was like "nda mbawa2 ah puteri ah?" lol. Well she sed that jokingly but since she didnt go like "ehh party2 saja" I'm guessing that she allows xD

Hahaha I am sucha freak. I dunno why I just sed that. Omg I havnt finished my Biz hwk.. =( N I'm goin out tomoro! Cheman nie chemannnn?!! lol. Ah well :)

We're having a barbeque at home tomoro night.....As usual hehe. Hmmm, yeah. Ntaha. I wonder what we're gonna do at the mall tomroro.. Menalur jua ganya tu hahahaha. Ah well, I miss the gurls :) Andatlicious~ hahahaha. Bah I'ma go play some games with my Sukarno (Helmy Shah) hahaha.. Byes hehe. Peasheness ppl.

Gossip~ hahaha.
Mood:  party time!
Now Playing: My Humps - Black Eyed Peas
Hellew. hehehe. I'm gossipin with my cousin's cousin.. She's ironing her mom's baju kurung n tudung.. Talkin about Brunei's music industry haha. People tend to talk to me about this.... It's weird cus I'm not the arist in the fam am I. Nda jua ku tau apa2 kali? hahaha =P Oh, she just left :)

Hmm, now I'm like waiting for my cousin's boyfriend (and fiancee-to-be) to msg her so that I can get dressed.. Huhuhu. Jauh bah dari KB...So malash kan bebaju awal2. hehe.

Hahaha the engage-ee is ironing her fam's clothes... "Kena dera bah urg kan btunang ah" katanya hahahaha. Sianz~ rofl.

Bah eh ppl seem to be non-stop coming into n outta my room.. LoL c ya!

winky winky~ peasheness!! \/

Turn to me and what do u see?
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway CD
My cousins from my mum's side came from Sundar today.. hehe. It's been fun since they have like little kids xD They're so annoying!!! Hahaha. But still, CUTENESS! Hmmm, we went to The Mall tadi bawa durang jalan2.. :) I saw Bed's family....but she wasn't there. Which was kind of annoying because when my parents go to the mall without me, they always run into bed lol n when I was there, bed wasn't there, but her whoooole family was hahaha. Toingness... But yeah nnnneways, I'm bored. I wanna be sleepy, but I'm not. Ugh. Where is everyone? Ntah eh. I might just give in and go to bed.. *shrugs* Wellp, c ya'll n take care~

Waddap? lol.
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Fort Minor - Believe Me on down low.... and Friends on TV :)
Hehe hello~ :)

I'm sleepy... I have a painful blister... I'm waiting for someone who is never coming online... And I gave him my number -- which he is not going to call or message... sigh.

On the upside, I chatted with Mel tadi :D n I met this really nice guy who I was waiting for. huhuhu I guess that wasnt really an up point eh.. Ah well.

I was playing tic tac toe on Mines`' friendster profile tadi for like half an hour lmao. Asked wan to play with me but he had to go... lol.

Why the ef do people come online...say hi to u n then log off right before u reply? Useless I'd say.

My cousin is getting engaged on Sunday.. Sigh. I don't do good with lotsa ppl over here. Let's just hope that I won't just stay in my room all day long lol. Ooh but I wanna see how Bruneians get engaged!!!! Hahahaha I sound like a foreigner :P But I've never seen these things before~ We're always told to stay home. Nyehness lol. But I'm gonna see it this time! xD

So neways, Friends just ended n I'm laughing so silly. Byes~ peasheness <3

P/s: Nada MD Prom kah? lolll.