finally! hehe.
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Hilary Duff CD
Errrr, i was cleaning up my closets today (when i shud be reading my biz or ELL books for tomorrow's exams), n i found silly poems i used to write years ago.. hehe.

They tell me to follow my heart,
When all they do is instruct.
They ask me to be a part,
When what they’re doing is as stupid as fuck.

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What I see in your eyes
Is what makes me move on everyday
It’s the light that shines through
That picks me up when I start to breakaway.

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When I feel that I can’t move on,
When I feel that I can’t be strong,
When I don’t have any idea what to do,
I know who will be there; it’ll be you =)

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I wanna soar in the sky
As free as a bird and as small as a fly.
I wanna sing so slow
As confident as a cat and as graceful as a sparrow.
I wanna have a place of my own unlike a laboratory
Where even Dexter’s Didie couldn’t kacau me.
I wanna be as beautiful as Miss World
As pretty as pink wool and as elegant as a curl.

hehe there's one i wrote for my bestfriend Nishara who was in a different school with me at the time. but she's in MD with me now =)

Nishara
The pretty gurl
In curls.
She makes guys’ heads twirl
Just like an ice-cream swirl.
She came from Sri Lanka
Which is just near India.
She’s so cool
She ain’t no fool
Coz she’s my best friend
And there’s no one I’ll most likely defend
Coz she’s always there for me
And I just try my best to make her happy.

lol i sooo hope she doesnt read this :P
n of course, one for this guy i used to have a crush on... hahaha. any wafees out there, im sorry hahaha.

Wafee
He’s the guy for me
When I see him I get all twirly
And what words that come to my head are all flirty
Man he’s so sexy
Stop it me, you’re being a perverted gurlie!!

hahaha. n ummm there's a plainly silly story one..

When we were young
We used to play in the sandbox
And play simban with them rocks.
But there was this one kid
Who was the shy one in the block.
We used to invite him to play Hang The Lid
But he would say “When I feel like it, I’ll give you a knock”
He really never ever did.

When we were done with high school
The kid was far away in a place so cruel
I heard he gets beaten up by the Cools
Seems like they have mistaken him for a fool!
They’d just throw him into fish pools
As if it was a written rule.

One day, we went to visit him
He wouldn’t come to his dorm room door.
He didn’t even answer our calls
We thought that he must’ve been hurt to the core.
I left him a message and slid it under his door
He found it later on the floor
Read the letter and wanted to know me more.

He called me on my cellphone
I gave him my number in the letter
He asked me why we didn’t visit him earlier
“Now I look so miserable you won’t even kilala”
I asked him to meet me the next day at a nearby diner
He agreed and met me around the spot at 3 on the pointer
Damn, I sure didn’t recognise him…he looks finer!

After the meet we hung out a lot
He’d just treat me to lunch, dinner and floats.
He’d even buy me presents and there was a cactus in a pot
Of course I felt like I had to repay his good thoughts
So, I wanted to make him meet all of our old neighbourhood lot.
He was so thankful, he was so caught.

One day, he asked me to marry
To him, oh I couldn’t be more happy
He came into my net and now he’s even sloppy
Of course I didn’t really love him…he’s just so sexy!
Plus he’s rich and fo shizzy I love money!
I’ll be with him and making lovey dovey
While downstairs there’ll be a nanny
Putting all the nappies properly
On our 21 babies.
As if I care; as long as I’m happy!

nyahaha. i am not like that in real life ah people ah please ah.. hahahahahahaha. i was just laughing my head off reading them tadi.. sigh =) hahaha. urmmmm, im outtie. good luck to me for ELL n biz! okay? hehehe. mwahs u beautiful beautiful people! peasheness~

happy nearly teachers' day~
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Choir Teachers' Day burnt CD
Mel left for UK already :( i went to send her off tadi, i dragged AzNuur along mwahahahaa. it was so sad.. sigh. might not see her in two years she sed. mel.. mel.. oh crap, now im crying... lol. i didnt cry at the airport u see =) ummm so neways, turns out i know alot of ppl she does lol.

i got mad at by my teachers today... awal2 biz teacher in the early morn.. coz i cudnt come to class psl i have choir rehearsal for teachers' day d ICC. then accounting teacher lagi after my afternoon class wit her.. siiiigh, i hate it when people marah sama aku... :( who doesnt right? but i always feel like crying when sumone marah2 arahku. adrenaline rush wah tu tarus hahaha.

oh my gosh.. my nose bled last night when i was asleep hahaha. i jumped right out of my sleepiness n went to the toilet with my eyes partially closed lol. the blood was near my mouth sudah.. ew. hahaha. so after it was done drippin n i was done cleanin i went back to bed n guess what? i starts dripping again... so i jumped back outta bed, but this time to get my towel... i lay back down in bed n just wiped off the blood n held it to my nose hahaha how lazy can a person be...! but yea, it stopped eventually.
it used to happen alot... but its stopped a while ago n we (me n mum) thought that i grew out of it or sumthing. but uhh, i havent yet have i now hahahaha.

sadah said that she missed me today *awwwwwwwwww* hehehe. but umm, i hung out with amal n azam after my accounting n before choir practice.. makan kami d canteen hehe. exams r coming around the corner; its so near that i can smell the F burning lol apakan.. my jokes r lamer than azam's hahahahahaha zam.. "im glad we didnt play at asma hotel or else i wud catch asthma" D'OH ahahahaa.

oh.. umm zaim choir sez that i shud be more pemarah with them like dhiya was... n i cant do that coz i thought dhiya wasnt pemarah.. lol. qilah pun baik... i only know one yg pemarah... urmmmmm :)

so neways, im outtie. balabaibaiii peelipolpolll~
wer did i get that? O_o nyahahaha.

OOOOOOOOOOOH i just found out that my Form 3 teacher d SMBerakas, Teacher G-Mah, is getting married!!! Sept 25th!! I dint get the memo lol. Unaizah yg d Oman plang nggtau aku bah hahahaha. yatah tu, CONGRATULATIONS to her!!!!! hehe i know she wont know that i sed that to her, but janji aku ikhlas n i am ikhlas =)

p/s: c hott is so hott hahahaha.

peasheness ;)

so tired...
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: Vanessa Carlton's "White Houses"
Yaw.. i dunno why im sad. just one of those nights aye.. :) i guess its okay that no matter how sad i am, i can still manage to smile n laugh.. or does that make me pathetic? hmmmmm. lol like i wud care if i was pathetic :P i try not to be though ;)

hmmmm, im not sure if i can get my math homeworks done by monday... so uhh ohh, im gonna be dead meat. nyeh, ntah lah hehe.

i went to miri today. it was alright. havnt been there for quite a long ass time, so yeah, it felt weird. hehe. maxx n i kept feeling paranoid. lol. hmm, i didnt buy much stuff but it was okay lah hehe. i met my biz classmate zatee d sana xD

ummmmmmmmmm... i dunno what else to talk about, so im outtie. ooh look, zeerah's online :) hehe. peasheness..

whadhap peepol?! lol.
Mood:  loud
Now Playing: Bounce - Fatty Koo
hallo~ hehe. we just had choir practice this morn n then went out with the rents, jalan2. i got so paning. but hey, at least my head feels aloooooooooot better after i changed my shampoo :)

everyone kept calling me "boss" tadi since i became the new choir president, it was weeeird.. lol but its cool that they make it easy for me. thanks guys =)

adeh, my mum just walked in n asked me if i wanned to ikut jalan hahahaha. no way. paning ku lagi krg :P

im still sick, but it comes n it goes... biasanya malam lah aku kesian lol.

nyeh, i have to go now... the rents mbawa mencari kain fo baju raya pertama lol. c ya babes~ peasheness <3333333333333333333333333333333

1 day to go?
Mood:  down
Now Playing: Peter Pan (the indonesian band)
sigh, i got A D D D grades for my MPR. i gave it to my dad today...well my mom took it to my dad. after i got chopsticks downstairs for my spaghetti, singgah japs to the rents' room. n dad asked my why my grades r low n my mom started telling to study n blah blah n "how r u going to get a scholarship" blahs.. n i was like "coming i here was a mistake" n just walked out..

then in my room, i started thinking about what they said n started crying.. i lay on my bed thinking if i'll ever actually get a scholarship... n ummm started crying even more. ntah eh. i hope i get a scholarship. kalau nda, UBD saja. kalau sana pun na jua kena accept, menganggur saja. jadi housewife. kalau nda kawin, jaga parents saja..

im drawing my baju raya. havnt made one yet. so bye.